I’ve come to the conclusion that I should have a little section just for the boy I’m stalking. And let me clear up now that by stalking I only mean that I have been to several workshops he’s been involved in. He doesn’t know I’m stalking him, I think. Or it may be a case of the hunter becoming the hunted. But as Gomez Adams would say [about Morticia] “I would die for her. I would kill for her. Either way, what bliss.”
Today since I was not feeling well, I basically left him alone, just a good morning. He was not conducting the workshop so he sat in the back of the room. I could see his reflection on the computer screen next to me. He kept looking at me. He did come over once to ask how I was. I told him I was a woman and feeling a bit discomfort. He seemed to understand, and asked if I needed any thing? And when I replied no, he left and didn’t bother me the rest of the session. I knew he was a good boy.
This session was on pod casting and I wasn’t really into the presenter, since during these times most things annoy me. And this guy annoyed me. I mean I love gay guys, but the gay man in me wanted to kick this guy’s ass. And not fuck him afterwards. But I did get a good hand out.
Here are some sites:
Podsafeaudio free music to be used for pod cast
Sounddog (music and sound effects)
But while sitting there my mind started to wander about my obsession, and an email I got from a young man asking me to train him in submission.
First let me say I think if my obsession had a mentor he might turn out to be one that will bring some luck woman great joy.(I’m just guess here but damn). As for the email request, it never amazes me that someone would ask to be trained by someone else in this way. What I mean is this, and as I’ve written to the young man. If I’m training someone to be with me that’s not a problem. But how in the world would I train someone in submission when I’ve never been submissive. Granted we all have to submit at times one way or the other. As the prophet Chris Rock said we don’t pay taxes the IRS takes taxes. And that’s a stick up.
But I digress.
I have mentored and been mentored by Tops on certain skills I wanted to learn. But I had to do the internal work when it came to embracing my Dominance. Sure I get together with other Tops and we discuss a great many things that come up in the life of a Domme. I have suggested to the young man he find others who identify like himself and learn from and talk to them. That’s were I believe one finds the help they are looking for.
Now since I’ve been in this a bit and I’m not that damn naïve. I do know that for some this is a back handed way for Tops to get off by “training” a submissive to get off by being “trained”. On both side sex is included. YEAH RIGHT.
And the above statement is just my opinion,
Now I guess this is as good a point to state that I did also tell him if he wanted to be trained in how to take a whipping and keep on ticking I could help him there. But only to the degree of the whipping, he would have to do the rest of the work. The work meaning, what might be going on with him internally.
I could guess, but I get off on the other side of the whip. I should also mention that after I was trained I was hit with the whip once.
The only thing I though after I screamed and jumped around a bit was this; is my friendship with this person worth me throwing it away by rushing towards him and kicking him in the ball? And am I willing to take the ass whipping I might have gotten from this person for 1) rushing him and kicking him in the balls? 2) Would I be able to out run him? And 3) If I do out run him am I also willing to leave my whip behind?
Until next time Perverts
